Tell Me Goodbye ♥

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Two Different Kinds of People

Am I consider a chinese? A chinese should know how to speak mandarin, cantonese and etc but I can only speak english well. Why? I was raised up in an english family background and I was not taught to speak or read chinese since I'm young. Before I enter college I was not really bothered not knowing how to speak chinese because I'm used to speak cantonese or english back in my hometown so i had not much trouble communicating with my friends as well as my relatives. Ever since I've been put into my college, I start to realize everyone around me speak chinese and most of them are chinese educated background so in order to mix with everyone I had to learn chinese and most of them speaks to me in my usual language which is cantonese and english and I feel they had tried their best to communicate with me. Recently, we had just arrived in Langkawi for industrial training in Meritus Pelangi Spa & Beach Resort. We really had fun time together so far but these few days I've been really down. It has been my own problem and not my friends. I felt language is the barrier between us. Most of them speak chinese among themselves and I had not been able to join their conversation because I felt they're not even talking to me so I shouldn't talk too much. These has been continuosly happen for the past two days. During the daytime I will be in jovial mood and I do talk to them but comes to night time my mood swings. So, I do not know whether I'm faking myself in front of them or what. I've been trying to avoid confronting them but it seems to be unavoidable. For example, we had dinner together just now so we sat together and they talk chinese and again I kept quiet until we all finish eating and in order not to confront them I decided to storm out of the cafeteria and walk back myself to hostel. They planned to go to the beach earlier before and i said okay to one of my friend but after that i decline to go the beach because I am afraid I will be speechless. They know I'm a talkative person and when I don't talk they know I'm emo. The only person who know I'm having these problem is two of my sis Amila and Mei Chee. There is one more person I really miss and wanted to talk to her so badly which is my dearie sis Nikhita but she's not in malaysia at the moment. She went to US for her bro's wedding. How I wish she's back already.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Thanks for the ditch guys. Appreciate it ALOT -.-

Last day tonight. Gonna spend tomorrow's night in Langkawi but somehow I don't feel happy at all. I've been ditched and I'm all alone. Really fucked up -.- It was something that I wasn't expecting but thanks to a bunch of friends who ditch me so I could "happily" travel alone and meet up with you guys in LCCT -.- I thought I could arrive in Langkawi in a happy mood but it seems that it's not happening. Perhaps next time I shouldn't follow you guys. I meant my words and I'm gonna travel by myself without you guys. Anyway, thanks again for ditching me. Appreciate it ALOT -.- I'm so fucking bloody happy. You know that guys?! I AM HAPPY!!! I'm even smiling. Here's the FUCKING smile >>> =D

PISSED OFF! -.-"

Fucking pissed off with my friends right now! I thought 2 of my friends would come back to Gohtong Jaya then make our way to KL Sentral together as we promised before we went back to our hometown and so happen the last two days i text to ask them when they're coming back and they told me they're coming back. I was so fucking pissed off because I come back all the way from Ipoh just to meet up with them and now they say they're not coming back and today is the most FUCKING PISSING OFF DAY EVER!!! They can't even text to tell me that they're going LCCT by themselves and ask me how am i going there? Not even a notice from them! I have to text them to ask them one by one end up I have to go LCCT all by my FUCKING self! ASSHOLES! I'm not even familiar with KL and great I have to travel all alone to LCCT. Don't worry, I'll remember how you treat me guys. I SWEAR I FUCKING WILL!!! -.-_|_

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Backpacking

Gohtong Jaya

Pelangi Resort, Langkawi

Sigh. Gonna head back up to Gohtong Jaya next Tuesday morning. I'm kinda happy because I'll get to enjoy streamyx for another 4 days and get to see my roommate, Rash before I depart to Langkawi for training and he'll be going to Genting for training. Definitely gonna miss my other roommates as well, Jin and Yew for sure. No futsal for 6 months for me and Rash but you guys can play with Halim and others but it might not be fun without me and Rash. Haha! Guess me and Rash we'll see you guys after 6 months =D but you guys will be going for internship as well after we come back. Such a sad sight =( I'm feeling so RESTLESS about what to bring to Langkawi!!! Oh my god, WHAT SHOULD I BRING?! should I bring less or more clothes? Hmm *brainstorming*

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Big Bang's 2009 Big Show Concert ♥ [Disappointment]

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Big Bang [ Electric Love Tour 2010] ♥

These 15 vids i posted above are the latest Big Bang's "Electric Love Tour 2010" which held in Japan recently. It is much newer than the "Shine A Light Concert 2010" =) Big Bang did sang some of their Japanese hits and so there are more new songs sang by them compare to the "Shine A Light Concert 2010" I hope ya'll like it and enjoy! =D

Big Bang [Shine A Light Concert 2010] ♥

These vids that I post up here are all Big Bang's second latest "Shine A Light Concert 2010". I hope you guys enjoy watching it =D Fyi, there's only 10 parts of these vids and the last vid which is "Look Only At Me" sang by Tae Yang feat. G-Dragon and Big Bang's "Last Farewell" are not included in these 10 parts so I post it separately from all the 10 parts. Hope ya'll like it =)